Saturday, October 30, 2004

Difficult to let go

Why do you have to go?
Tell me the reasons I want to know!
The reality of you leaving us is very hard?
For in our lives you have touched our hearts.
You are there no matter what,
When we are happy, sad or feeling that life just sucks.
Time flies real fast,
It only seem just yesterday that you were there nagging at us… =)
You have been a good leader, a friend to us!
We will cherish and think of you from dawn to dusk…
We will remember the times we spent together…
I will never forget the times… Never…

Thursday, October 28, 2004

Our lifes...

We sometimes allow emotions to rule our life, at times our family and friends and sometimes our crush/girlfried/boyfriend. Have anyone thought why we allow them to take control our life? The life is ours, dun we get to choose what we want? To me, I do not like my life to be controlled even though I listen to my parents but I do not totally be what my parents want me to be. I feel that if you want me to be this I will try to not be that person. The reason... This is my life! Whatever I do I will have to take the consiquences. If you tell me to be this and it turns out to be wrong are you going to take that respondsibility of ruining my future? I have the right to choose what I want to do in my life... If you want to ask me when will be the time when I will be controlled by someone, that time will be after I get married. As the bible says when a couple gets married, it is 2 flesh becoming as one so whatever my wife says I have to consider very closely. But for now no... i would not be controlle at all... In life, luv is important. The luv between friends, sibling luv, parental luv and even luving someon special (someone close to your heart). Without these luvs, life is meaningless, all you feel is lonelyness. But why is luv so complicated? Especially in a relationship? What is the purpose of a relationship... I onli know that for a relationship with a person from the other sex it is marraige... but what if he/she is not the right one for you? When you 2 break up what importance does the purpose hold at all? Think of these questions and think it hard... What you want in your life, be it your everyday life or your luv life. This is the main thing...

Wednesday, October 27, 2004

Is our parents right? I have been thinking about this question for a long time. Today it made me think harder if ya they were rite? I know that many of you would tell me that no parent is perfect and I agree on that but than why do they have to always say they are right? Why do we have to always give in to them and agree with them that they are right? I know that you would say because of peace and from the bible, honour your father and mother, but really are we oso sinning by not telling the truth? Parents always try to think that they know us inside out as they watch us grow up. However, we do change people change, so how much do they know about us?There are times when I feel like telling my dad or mum or even my aunt off. But due to respecting them I don't. Is this fair for me to keep all my feeling inside me? Can't I express my feelings at all? When they see us doing something they believe but when they don't they say you didn't do it... So if I don't see my parents doing work in their companies is it fair to say they are not working at all??
Ya... Now while I am writing this blog I got 3 other guys asking me qustions... how interesting... haha...3 retards asking me dumb question so I asking them back... haha... anyway... today has been better than the past 2 weeks of VB... we didn't walk out on him... haha... and with module chair in class somemore it was fun sia... he, because ms module chair was there, showed us respect... haha... ya... so people have been asking me this question... whu I like... ans... I ike everyone... no special feeling towards anybody except _ _ _... GOD!!! Ya so that's it...

Tuesday, October 26, 2004

The Capable Wife

The following is taken from Proverbs 31:10-31


Proverbs 3110 [1] A wife of noble character who can find? She is worth far more than rubies. 11 Her husband has full confidence in her and lacks nothing of value. 12 She brings him good, not harm, all the days of her life. 13 She selects wool and flax and works with eager hands. 14 She is like the merchant ships, bringing her food from afar. 15 She gets up while it is still dark; she provides food for her family and portions for her servant girls. 16 She considers a field and buys it; out of her earnings she plants a vineyard. 17 She sets about her work vigorously; her arms are strong for her tasks. 18 She sees that her trading is profitable, and her lamp does not go out at night. 19 In her hand she holds the distaff and grasps the spindle with her fingers. 20 She opens her arms to the poor and extends her hands to the needy. 21 When it snows, she has no fear for her household; for all of them are clothed in scarlet. 22 She makes coverings for her bed; she is clothed in fine linen and purple. 23 Her husband is respected at the city gate, where he takes his seat among the elders of the land. 24 She makes linen garments and sells them, and supplies the merchants with sashes. 25 She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come. 26 She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue. 27 She watches over the affairs of her household and does not eat the bread of idleness. 28 Her children arise and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her: 29 "Many women do noble things, but you surpass them all." 30 Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised. 31 Give her the reward she has earned, and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.



And this is the word of the Lord. Thx be to GOD.

Monday, October 25, 2004

Life...

Do not look at life at its’ dark side.
Else life would be a dreadful ride.
Everyone was brought to earth for a purpose,
Believe it or not you are uniquely made.
Dun care what others think or say bout you,
As long as you live a happy life, you live life to the full.
Life has a meaning,
Only for us to think.
Why was I brought here?
What am I suppose to do?
Why do I live at a time when the end is near?
All this questions I do not have a clue…
What if one day friends turns against each other?
What if our mother leaves our father?
Is it fair for us to have this things happen in this era,
When the end is becoming nearer and nearer?
Even though I want to be happy I just can’t…
After the thought of people suffering under their fellow man’s arms.
Why can’t the world be a peaceful place,
Where people do not care bout each other’s race?
I just want an ordinary peaceful life and not one that is only bout war.
But that life would not happen… it won’t happen at all…


Done By -=GaB=-

Sunday, October 24, 2004

Poem for Friends... hope you like it... haha

Trust is one thing we look in a FRIEND
It is important for a FRIENDSHIP to last to the end…
FRIENDS are like your pillow you need by your side…
You want them to be there with you no matter if it is day or night…
Some FRIENDS just come while some just go…
You never know which new FRIEND you may meet tomolo…
But we have to remember the times we spend together…
No matter if it is good or bad the peeps will be your FRIENDS FOREVER
So remember me today…
I am your FRIEND remember that ok?
I will be there when you are sad…
Or moody or just feeling bad…
I will lend you a shoulder if you need to cry…
It will be there for you if you cry your eyes dry…
Remember my words… remember it well…
Coz tomolo I may not live to tell…
That I luv you peeps and you have been good FRIENDS
I hope that our FRIENDSHIP will remain in our hearts to the end…



By: -=GaB=-

Today Quite Fun La...

Today was a... well fun and resourceful day... haha... Didn't noe that alchoal was under drugs in christian terms as u can get high and allow the devil to come into your life... But no where in the bible (except for proverbs) say that we cannot drink alchoal... the onli thing is dun drink too much till u are drunk or high can liaoz... haha... Anyway today went to try out if I liked the new guitar teacher n he's quite okie so wad i gg to do try to see if can get back to my old teacher or not get this teacher but he free onli on wed 5.30 la... aiya... Than church camp... how so little guys gg lei... dunno if wanna go or not... sianz la... somemore onli 60 places than so little people very sianz... haha... Ya the guy grp if u r reading this remember next sunday 2.30 meeting... haha... anyway today is basically go church... sleep... go guitar... log... church... pack up... go eat... than now on com and soon later I will go sleep early... haha

Saturday, October 23, 2004

Today... Sianz la

Yay... tomolo got guitar trails... haha... wish me luck! I hope that the teacher would be coolz and I like it so that it will end my search for a guitar teacher! Aiya... dunno if on wednesday should walk out on Beng or not... I feel like lei... I need him to respect the class first if he really wants our respect... No point respecting him if he dun respect us at all! Well... today gave up the chance to eat good food at HYATT but went to sambawang eat cheaper food (okie onli la nothing special). Slack alot sia... Than oso cannot stand my couzi whu is at my house now... got the guts to scold my beloved mama sia... if she not my couzi I dun giv face liaoz straight away giv her one tight slap... Aiya... dunno la... today oso no mood to write new poems liaoz sainz chik bi sia...

Friday, October 22, 2004

Lame man poem... hahaha...

Many things cannot be left behind,
like the memories that have been stuck in my mind.
How can someone so close to me juz go away,
I have not even told tt person tt I missed him/her today.
I miss the times in which we cried, laughed, and sighed.
Those feelings will be kept in my heart all day all night.
If one day we have to go...
I would juz want you to know...
No matter how far apart we are...
I will find you no matter where you are...
If you want to know the reason why...
Coz it's onli you tt is worth for me to cry...
I juz dunno why,
Well it is the feelings in me deep inside...
The thought of having you by my side,
Shows me how important to me you are.
Now I should juz end coz I think I am straying too far!


Done by: -=GaB=-

Cry...

Why did I cry?
I juz dunno why?
The look in ur eyes...
Juz give me a comfortable feeling inside.
I sit here crying in the loo,
Not wanting others to think I’m a fool.
To cry for you,
Is the dumbest thing I actually do.
I think of the times,
When you keep doing the same crime.
And that’s stealing my heart,
You steal it part by part.
Times I actually think
As my tears fill a pail to it’s very brink.
I try to forget you,
I actually tried.
I try to make my life new,
But in the end I choose a life and tt’s to die.


Done By: -=GaB=-

Juz another poem...

In life everything is possible...
To luv, to hate, to backstab and disgrace...
It is all within your grasp...
It is all up to you to decide what do you want to feel next?
Like a blindfold over me,
I juz choose to walked a path I couldn't see...
I choose this route,
I really did...
Luv is the guidance tt I really need...
Time and time I bluff myself...
That I have a chance to be with her...
I keep thinking of putting my arms round her...
To hold her tight to feel her warmth...
I luv her I really do...
But luv isn't a game that has rules...
It is not even a game...
But love is a beautiful picture in a frame...
Now all I do is dream and dream...
It's now the time for me to really face reality...


Done By: -=GaB=-

Thursday, October 21, 2004

LaMe PoEm...

What is it to love someone for someone who don't really know how to love?
What is it like to love a gal whu is as pure as a dove?
Does anyone know how it feels like...
When the 2 forces in you starts to fight?
No one knows exactly how I feel...
I don't even know if what I really feel is real!
It is so scary for me...
To tell her that the one I love is she...
In this place I start to cry...
Thinking that what if one day I actually die...
I feel so dumb saying this...
But she would be one gal I really miss...
To leave behind her in this place all alone,
Is it difficult to even tell her "I love you" on the phone?
Why do we have to even love someone at all?
Is it a sin if I actually have no feelings for anything or anyone at all?
You may tell me in loving her I am wasting my time!
Yes, and I hope that to love her would be a crime!
Now looking back to the past...
To love someone is the hardest task!
Love is selfish... Love cannot be explained...
Why do I love you is one question stuck in my brain!
To lose you to someone is really bad...
Thinking why I would lose you makes me sad!
I just hope that now I could be dead...


Done By: -=GaB=-

Wednesday, October 20, 2004

Life's better 2day

Today, I actually didn't wanna go school but ai dunno how to tell Mother that I dun feel like going to school 2day so go la. However after onli 3 hours of class got someone run wit me... haha my good buddy (JefF WoNg)... (wad toopid excuse sia say got practical)... ya anway today we had the ass back to facilitate our class (pity him sia onli 11 turned up today) and he asked the toopidest question if he had done anything wrong (if u say giving people like basri D is rite than I got nothing to say). Somemore giv attitude sia say that our class wanna test him... how we noe wat time we start see if fac wanna start early or not wad. Anyway, I would like to thank God that he got me out of the class to let me enjoy myself and release my stress through singing. We went to K-BoX to have some fun and yes we did (didn't noe my class got so many good singers). However, today spend till no more $ liaoz how!!! Sang a few songs nd sorri to those wit me have to endure 3 hours of my lousy singing... haha... I feel so sleepy I oso dunno what I'm gonna write liaoz...

Tuesday, October 19, 2004

Life sux

Today was totally boring in school especially when mr T started speaking... felt like sleeping liaoz... than tomolo is worst... mr Beng... Y my this sem fac all like shit one... aiya today was juz way too boring la... In the morning cum school sleep till class start than later after first meeting break (tt waas the great part) went out eat... didn't noe JEFF could spent so much in 2 days... than cum back class sit and play games (one new online game tt is so childish)... today tuthfully I didn't learn anything at all... Juz sitting there and rot is my specialty...
I have been thinking why can't our lifes be like the OC... like tt than would be more exciting rite... but dangerous as well... Aiya... why am I so stress??? why am I so bored and sad??? I dunno how to answer this... can you??? I dun think so I dun even understand my feelings and self would you even understand me??
What I want now is to do finish my stupid RJ that I dunno how to as well as get my elec guitar!!! I wanna jam...

Bored

Now I have nothing to do and since I have juz finished making this plain simple blog I decided to waste my time on it... Basically today was totally slack... didn't bother to do work at all but still my grp manage to skim everything... I juz hope tt life would be more exciting... ai but wat to do in singapore where it is small and nothing much to do u cannot expect anything... I am stuck liaoz... ai go sleep la dun bother writing liaoz... haha